Emotional Day

Today I am having a very emotional day. I don't know why these days spring up on me out of the blue, but I get them every so often. I find myself going from utter happiness and joy to severe fear and sadness. I love, love, love my children and am especially happy with where they are in life right now. I don't know of an age I like better than 20 months where I see Molly learning new things, saying new words, and becoming so independent. Sarah is so sure of herself and confident in who she is and that she will be marrying her daddy someday. I enjoy watching them learn from each other -Molly shows Sarah that she doesn't have to be so serious all the time, and Sarah teaches Molly how to understand things that she is doing. They are both so special to me and so different from each other. I am loving being their mom!
And then I flip. I almost go into convulsions thinking about how quickly they are growing and how little time I actually have with them. Will I remember what it feels like every time Molly says "Nuggle?" Will I regret that I didn't get Sarah more princess dresses? How do I know how I will feel when they are older and don't think the world revolves around me anymore? Will I wish I had spent more time with them? Will I regret the choices I'm making today when I no longer have the option? I hate that these thoughts pop up every so often and that when they do, they consume my every thought.
Sometimes I wish life were much simpler so that I could quit my job, spend all my time with them, yet still be able to provide them with the things that I want them to have and experience. I love my job and the importance of waking up and having somewhere to go each day, so does that make me a bad mom for not wanting to give it up?
I am sorry that this post is so depressing, but it is theraputic to blog about these thoughts, and I'm confident that I will read back over this one day and laugh at my craziness. The bottom line is that I love my girls and want for them to have the best life possible. I always knew parenting would be hard. I guess it's teaching me that I don't like to choose one thing over another. I want it all for my girls. I want them to have a well rounded, happy mom to look up to. I want them to be able to take ballet, swimming, and ice skating lessons. I want them to experience new things. I want them to be happy.
The question is...am I doing it right???

BUSY SUNDAY!

What a busy day!

The girls and I woke up around 7 to see Donny off to work for the day. We made homemade waffles and the girls soon took off to their playroom. I went up after cleaning the kitchen to find them standing on the windowsill looking at the "town!"

We met up with Aunt Bridget (Doodie) and Cayden for lunch at Ci Ci's Pizza. After lunch, Sarah invited them to come over to play, so Cayden and Aunt Doodie got an eye and an ear full of Sarah's rendition of Enchanted. So Fun!

Next - after a nap of course! - we headed to Drug Mart to buy ingredients for cupcakes because tomorrow is Grandma Carol's birthday! We couldn't escape without getting a new princess tiara and earrings!

Sarah and Molly helped mix, bake, and even taste test the yummy cupcakes! Hopefully Grandma will enjoy them tomorrow (if they last that long!).

Daddy's Girls

So, a breakdown of what has been going on around here...

Donny has been off of work since around Thanksgiving, so he has become Mr. Mom (Mr. Dad). The girls are learning amazing new things while staying home with him. For example, I could never teach my girls to make noises like a pterodactyl, draw faces on their hands and make them talk, or how to survive while tackling the dog. Molly has learned how to take out all of the wipes from a box and how to clearly demonstrate that she is just not happy with something. (Today she slammed Sarah's hand in a door.)

Along with all of these crazy things they are learning, they are also exploring their world through playing together, practicing clean up skills, and having the freedom to be princesses all day long. I've truly never seen them happier and while I am overjoyed to see the amazing relationships they are building, I cannot help but wonder what I'm missing out on. I fall in love with him all over again when I think about how great he is doing having been thrown into a situation where he is responsible for so many things. I see what a great man he is because he never complains, never needs a break, and never throws it in my face that I don't do anything around the house! I am finding myself wishing I could stay at home with them each day, yet feeling torn because I wanted to teach so badly. So, time will tell that my girls are well rounded people who can not only use manners and be polite, but can also crow like a friggin pterodactyl. That oughta score some serious points with future boyfriends...

(as I'm writing this, Sarah clears it up that pterodactyls don't crow, they coo. My mistake.)

Pictures

Sarah's vanity from Santa.


Sarah and Molly at Grandma's.



Mon-E!





Molly and Sarah (check out those dangle earrings!)

I'm BACK!

Hi Friends! I'm BACK! Now that I've finished my marathon (5 hours, 18 minutes - ran the whole way), earned my Master's Degree, and have gotten settled into my routine of going to work everyday, I'm ready to compete with my mother! I know that she blogs about my babies almost daily, so it will be a challenge, but believe it or not, I know those darlings quite well, and I see, hear, and experience things with them that no one else does! I will not, however, be able to compete with MeMe's fabulous pictures! So, tune in here for the book version, and to her blog for the illustrations!

Here's a bit of an update...
Sarah is three going on fifteen (or "five teen" as she says it). She can be the sweetest darling or the grouchiest gremlin! She now knows the phrase "friggin" as in: "I can't open this friggin Barbie bed!" I know, I know, I'm not proud -yet I have to laugh! She went ice skating for the first time this past weekend and although she cannot stand on her own, she was all for kicking her skates in the air and asking if she could take her hat off so her hair could twirl in the wind. That girl thinks she is a princess who can skate with the best of 'em! She is still going to school three days a week, knows how to count and add small problems (think 2+2 up to 5+5...thats how many fingers she has!). She is also learning that some boys are nothin' but trouble, and "WE don't play with boys like that." She loves to help her sister and often wakes her up from her nap with "true love's kiss." I'm just LOVING every minute of her!

My Molly (I've sinced dropped the Moo, yet picked up calling her "Mon-E" since that what she calls herself!) is growing so quickly! As I mentioned in my very first post, that child has a mind of her own and will only do things on her own time! She is developing quite a little attitude, constantly using the word, "NO" and pushing my legs to get me to go where she wants me to go. She enjoys pulling all the wipes out the container, throwing entire boxes of cotton swabs on the floor, and tossing the magnets off the fridge. She loves to watch Word World and enjoys talking - no matter who is listening! When she is tired, she will find her Lovey and drop on the floor- be it the kitchen, living room, or outside. She won't sleep, but she'll lay there! She also loves to "Nuggle" and will cry until you abide. She loves her big sister and tries to do everything Sarah does. I'm just LOVING every minute of her!

Pictures!

Here's a pictoral update...Hope you like :)


Sarah at the beach near our house. Gotta love Lake Erie!

Molly lovin' the beach!

Sarah's famous sticker creation!

The infamous birthday picture with Daddy at 2:50 p.m.

Our birthday girl! We can't believe she's three...

I'm so bad at this!

Oh my gosh! I was so excited about this blogging business when I started and now look at me. I haven't seen my girls much lately, let alone take pictures to compete with the things MeMe is sharing! I am happy that my girls are lucky enough to spend their days with someone who dotes on them so...
I am still working on getting my master's degree - I should be graduating in December. THANK GOD! Work is going great with my class of 15 third graders. They are still young enough to like school and love their teacher, but old enough to complete projects and reports, so I am working hard to challenge them!
Sarah was so excited about starting school. She is still obsessed with saying the word "banik," which we've come to figure out is her own language for a metal cocktail drink stirrer. What a wack job she is! Anyways, nothing makes us laugh more than when she says randomly, "Mommy, did you just say banik??!!" Hilarious! What a creative mind that child has!
Molly moo (I know, I know, I'm trying to stop!) is growing like a weed. Lately I've been waking up in the middle of the night just to hold her and rock her. I feel like I am so busy sometimes that I am missing all the great moments of my baby's childhood. Even now, I am beginning to cry writing this. You always hear that they grow up quickly...Don't blink!! ANYWAYS, Molly is growing into an adorable little person who roams the house looking for me saying, "ma ma" whenever I am not near her. She loves to play with her sister and I am so excited to see what the future holds!